May 8 2025 Pancake Marathon
- May 8
- 6 min read
You may think that there are a thousand different things being done in recovery, really there's just a thousand different ways of saying a few simple things.
Today, right now, I feel super I don't know; but that's the thing I get to figure this out.
it has something to do with acceptance and unmanageability that's happening because I added something to my life, so I recognize these things as potential triggers/ hazards/ moments to where I can fall into my stinking thinking and burnt down my life; the question is it's always a great day and how am I going to keep it that way?
it truly isn't that I made just my life a manageable: because I got a scooter and nothing's heavy and I live upstairs and somebody lives below me, so that's kind of what I'm going through at this moment: because it kind of fell and made a lot of noise; yeah let me count the wins here: that I did it in the daytime opposed at 1:00 in the morning.
and yes it's something new and it's something that I have not dealt with before, and so of course that's going to take a little bit more effort and energy and actions based around becoming good for me to be good for others; yes do I need to eat this is true.
and still that might not be relatable as such as a scooter thing to some but it doesn't stop the fact that we all have something going on that just isn't something we find acceptable when we are in our stinking thinking/ self-seeking attributes of what we want in life, it's not that they're right and we're wrong and it's not that we're right and they're wrong: as even it's super true that just because you're right and they're wrong doesn't make them wrong; you know the Paradox of everyone deserves life: even though we can question that moment of our insanity that brings us to acceptance: that they do have worth and value.
is so easy to get focused on the parts that just don't line up to us always being happy, to those parts that we want to destroy condemn and even that of just erase from all existence; and yet that's the thing: I've come to this you know Spiritual Awakening as the Moment of clarity based around the light bulb moment that all lessons regardless of how the teacher is to appear/ you know the messenger, are still to be learned: as for then it's up to me to learn them and not to run away.
for so easy to, But That's The Power Within making sure things don't pile up and really having our priorities within a measure of what we can do when we keep it simple; and to recognize these parts where we're just so angry because life is not already done because we didn't put the work in.
do I feel better because of this action right here creating this thing that I do everyday, to the best of my ability to; for yes there are days and there are moments and there are areas that are challenging to do it everyday: such as when I get up at 7:00 a.m., to do a prep day, to then essentially get back and you know have a life in that moment in that day/ as to then it's challenging when I have a sponsee and they want to hang out essentially and doing everything else/ to then cheering a meeting at 10:00 p.m. to essentially 12:00 a.m.: where it's an hour meeting but then there's a fellowship part.
yet that's the power of doing inventory/ reflections, on where I am in life; that's the power of living life on life's terms.
and yes it's this power of acceptance that these things are what they are, that I cannot change them from not happening because they've happened; and it is super still true that I can make it the end of the world, but I get to making amends when needed: even if that is to myself.
So it's as what I say to my sponsors and what my sponsor said to me: I think, that's about doing one thing in a way of changing things, and so you can go ahead and find the variable of what's unable in your life/ what's creating this turmoil and pain( new addiction: that you get to learn from and love); and once you figure that out you're able to find a way to keep it simple because that's what you're doing.
and that moment when you're keeping it simple, and you see that your life is getting a little bit more chaotic, then it comes down to the simple fact of go back to doing everything that you did before that helped you have a solid foundation not built on quicksand; and accept that it is as what it is but through that of realizing that you don't have to do everything at once and if you still have a bed and food then you're fine and it's all going to be okay.
Topic
Todays a day: Today's a moment that I look and see: wow I still get stressed out, Yes this is true but it comes down to this simple fact of how am I going to keep the day great and still be good for others; because somehow this is just a gift from the teacher of that moment and in that I get to find that it's not that bad or I've come this far and it's all going to be okay: but how will I?
How: Honest Open willing
For maybe “how,” is “what,” to you or is your “why;” but how will you do it?
Why: welcoming home yourself
What: Wonder How About today?
But it's about finding your why/what (Purpose) through how (efforts) you are going to do it.
Todays a day:
Honesty👀
Today's a moment that I look and see: wow I still get stressed out,
Open-mindedness👀
Yes this is true but it comes down to this simple fact of how am I going to keep the day great and still be good for others;
Willingness 👀
because somehow this is just a gift from the teacher of that moment and in that I get to find that it's not that bad or I've come this far and it's all going to be okay: but how will I?
APS: Acronyms (bold) Principles (italic) Slogans (underlined)
Slogans are wisdom written in shorthand and Acronyms are just the sum/the Virtues, of all that wisdom: WISDOM: When In Self, Discover Our Motives
Wow, today I just had to really let go in that God because something was just not already done for me; and my expectations analysis is paralysis and that level of trust based around my already expectations of having to do work that I have no idea on what it is: created this chaos and me; minds are like parachutes, and so then I really truly seen that I went through it but that's okay that's life. living life on life's terms comes with its own moments of within that aspect of how strong of a foundation/ what kind of Spiritual armor do I have/ what spiritual toolkit have I acquired/ what level of Serenity do I want and how do I comprehend that word “ serenity;” and so I still see myself in that moment of whoa, but that's the thing that was just them: I did not make a permanent decision based around a temporary moment. regardless of how frustrating and inconvenient that thing was: as to me, it still is worth it; and that's why today I love where I am at in my recovery.
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