April 30 2025 Pancake Marathon
- Apr 30
- 4 min read
You may think that there are a thousand different things being done in recovery, really there's just a thousand different ways of saying a few simple things.
In life it's almost as if somehow I fall into an automation mode, where I get away from my true authentic self and I just start going through the motions; it's in this moment where it's me that gets to call out what I'm within my BS: being silly.
life has almost the same kind of a affects, it's within itself that some would say that is why bad things happen to good people; but at the same time does good stuff happen to bad people: I wonder if that would be okay to happen, as if I was talking to somebody else that only wants bad for bad people?
and still would that then be why it's okay to have a second chance, how in that moment we almost don't give ourselves that second chance: because maybe we think we're bad people and we deserve all the bad things that happened to us; and yet oh yeah all not in this together: yes it's true that we don't have to do it together and we can do it all by ourselves but then to what point and to what ends do we have that be ending?
see that is the truth in this whole entire grand scheme of life, that it's up to me to make it something worthy of what I see; it's nothing more than what I want or it is super true that” the truth is what I make it.”
So maybe I make it really great and maybe I make it really horrible, and yet that makes me think of the whole aspect of how Maybe the villains are yet to be seen as a hero; for some expectation that could be unrealistic when it comes to real life: where the trees produce oxygen and have no adaptation into a fallacy/ the story we like to give to make ourselves feel better.
see it's in that that very moment where it's not that we are the only ones that hold on to this BS, and start strutting down the beach as if we are not the actual Beach: being Sandy and salty; or we are what we think about/ our bodies are what we eat/ and our souls are what we feel in that moment.
so it's easy to want to run away and find the perfect hermit crab style of living, but it's also Worthy to be a gift: this horror in the making played out through the theatrical drama that became a thriller Within that of a nightmare; as yet this nightmare really was truly of my own creation: it's not that it doesn't really hold true to others as the same but what can I keep making it; see that's the thing how will I keep making it something or it's up to me to call myself out or to not.
but see here's a thing If thoughts are like socks and you can change your socks and never have another thought of the other socks that you changed from, because let's get real you don't: let's say that you can be able to buy new socks and have new socks every time okay and even if you have to do laundry and wash those socks, you don't think about those socks and tell them; so keeping it simple socks are like thoughts, if we are ready and done learning from them: then in that moment do we put on a new pair of socks but until then we will be carrying these socks around until the end of our days that we make into as such: but we don’t have too if we get too just see our BS happening.
Topic
Starting to live: I start to live only when I start letting go, I never said that I wanted this: but in some way I found a way to hold on to that pain until I Let Go; it's in this moment that I let go that I finally start living but until then am I just waiting to die?
How: Honest Open willing
For maybe “how,” is “what,” to you or is your “why?”
Why: welcoming home yourself
What: Wonder How About today?
But it's about finding your why/what (Purpose) through how (efforts) you are going to do it.
Starting to live:
Honesty👀
I start to live only when I start letting go,
Open-mindedness👀
I never said that I wanted this: but in some way I found a way to hold on to that pain until I Let Go;
Willingness 👀
it's in this moment that I let go that I finally start living but until then am I just waiting to die?
APS: Acronyms (bold) Principles (italic) Slogans (underlined)
Slogans are wisdom written in shorthand and Acronyms are just the sum/the Virtues, of all that wisdom: WISDOM: When In Self, Discover Our Motives
analysis is paralysis, I hold truth to this in all else when it comes to me just letting go and letting God; Even in those moments went all I can do try and if I do try is that then in a moment of a spiritual awakening as to what fact did that come only through that of as a result of these steps: as still was it because I finally started to trust, maybe even that of halt because I finally started to Q-tip as I started to see the wisdom of the pain and seen it as the gift that it is.
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