April 16 2025 Pancake Marathon
- Apr 16
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The Set Aside Prayer (or lay aside prayer): Dear God, please set aside everything I think I know About myself, this book, my disease, these steps, and especially about you dear God so that I might have an open mind And a new experience with all these things. Please help me to see the truth.
god shame you: I can only as good as the god (level of peace) I understand (to be or not to be, so what shall I be?), so I can't god shame you (let my ego say "I AM better then this ego."), more then I can do to myself; but if I do say your wrong then that would just say I have yet to come to trust myself and god?
Ways to understanding this writing
others
(different versions of myself: Is all is energy: as energy cannot be destroyed it can just change form: poetically stated by science/ the god within them as the same as the god with me)
I
( ego)
Life:
you are life and that is why it is happening to you([I] as that empowered by [other]).
You may think that there are a thousand different things being done in recovery, really there's just a thousand different ways of saying a few simple things.
In moments when I say “I can’t,” Become the moments I truly say I can; for yes “Unstoppable,” is just another way of saying “stoppable :” Just by the very word being there: is also true for that of “can't.”
As I start this day, I find that somehow I have found a level of being a zealot; now in the way I may be, I've come far, I have truly reached through the bounds of History: embracing a timeless serenity and finding a piece becoming the freedom knowing that it's all about comprehending the words Serenity and knowing a new peace; It is also within the actuality of things that life comes to moments of clarity and reflection: .. clarity when I come to being able to reflect, for that is a type of paradox upon itself: almost as if I'm redoing the past Within Myself And yet when it comes to the now moment I know I'm not redoing the past I'm living it now.
for I like to keep it simple, as we all do and yes in moments when we are a zealot: almost reliving our past through how we can be that of our future selves all in one moment: a true paradox, as it still comes to the very simple fact of the matter of is that I'm reliving my past or that of finding a way to have maybe that of doing something that I'm capable of ( within itself that just because I have the capability doesn't mean I would be wise to follow through with that) bringing forth blindness for all: as sometimes you know we get into the pattern and that of what it is “an eye out for an eye,” For them are we not all blind: has them now we are “ the blind leading the blind;” it is then I get to find a new level of acceptance and that of seeing how now I can comprehend serenity and finding a new piece.
For it's not that even I am a zealot or that of you know slipping back into my old ways through that of the understanding of the gift of recovery that would define that as my stinking thinking: for what is that of a zealot well it is simply to say that of: Making progress along how I can look and sound and yet in those moments that I am in turmoil and that of what is easily understood and categorized as stinking thinking, that somehow I have fallen back into my old ways; and yet let me treasure living life on life's terms and seeing how far I have come, and in that I realize it's not that I am falling back into my stinking thinking: it's the part that I have yet to work on and now I get to work on that part or even that of what is the realization and comprehension of addiction ( as I could easily understand addiction is a level of pain that I've yet to let go of).
as all of this comes to the points of how I can understand God and how I can go ahead and try to carry a message, bring forth anonymity within that sense of I am not the recovery program I found to help Within Myself and not of all around, to being able to find clarity/peace/ as what may be simply stated in my moments of how I can “zen my garden,” ( which would be simply understood as “ to keep my house in order,” “ to keep my side of the street clean.”) for it is as that I get to carry a message; So in Actuality there are moments were I just I'm at less than but still more than what it is to Simply call out to be at: my 30%, as to what is then the simplistic aspects of it's not my 100% And yet me showing up and me not isolating and me sharing is what is the gift of recovery: to not isolate and to see that just because I'm at my 30% can be somebody else's 100%: or it is always about meeting them where they're at; and maybe helping them find the voice that they never knew that they could have or even reassuring that they already know how to do the right thing, for maybe they just need a little bit of motivation and encouragement to say it's “okay to be okay and hurt people hurt people and even that of unhurt people unhurt people.”
For this is my recovery, and in that I get to become the face of my recovery but not the voice of others or even a fellowship at Large; it simply comes down to “me getting good to be good for others.”
Topic
Finding peace: seeing that I am hurt is just a start but is not something I have to finish with, I am more than capable of collecting those of misery but I'm also more than capable of acceptance; as it comes to each moment, I get to see that I can see peace and serenity if only I can see that I am hurt and that is okay?
How: Honest open willing
For maybe “how,” is “what,” to you or is your “why?”
What: wonder how about today?
Finding peace:
Honesty👀
seeing that I am hurt is just a start but is not something I have to finish with,
Open-mindedness👀
I am more than capable of collecting those of misery but I'm also more than capable of acceptance;
Willingness 👀
as it comes to each moment, I get to see that I can see peace and serenity if only I can see that I am hurt and that is okay?
APS: Acronyms (bold) Principles (italic) Slogans (underlined)
Slogans are wisdom written in shorthand and Acronyms are just the sum/the Virtues, of all that wisdom: WISDOM: When In Self, Discover Our Motives
I only have to give what I have to give, and in that I'm able to keep what I have to give, for it is true that sometimes all I can do is Q-tip or even halt so that I can see that each gift of just for today Is just God showing me the way; now I might not understand or comprehend or ever see the deeper levels of the Universe At Large or why things are unfolding the way that they are: for in truth doesn't matter about understanding if I am unable to just find the value of: for in that simplistic aspect would that not be the value and then that will bring the understanding?
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